As you know, I have resigned from my job in order to care full-time for our little girl! This has given me the freedom to take a step back to re-assess many things about the past, present, and future. It is profound how such a small baby can have such a dramatic effect on your outlook on life. Sometimes "you can't see the forest for the trees."
There are a few books to which I've turned in order to shed a little light on the subject. Funny thing is, most (if not all) of these books were given to us at work for periodic professional development.
First, I give you Sabbath: Finding Rest, Renewal, and Delight in Our Busy Lives.
"Because of our desire to succeed, to meet these ever-growing expectations, we do not rest." (p. 1)
"In our drive for success we are seduced by the promises of more: more money, more recognition, more satisfaction, more love, more information, more influence, more possessions, more security. Even when our intentions are noble and our efforts sincere--even when we dedicate our lives to the service of others--the corrosive pressure of frantic overactivity can nonetheless cause suffering in ourselves and others." (p. 1-2)
"...to surrender to too many demands, to commit oneself to too many projects...it destroys our own inner capacity for peace." (p. 3)
"Sabbath is a time to stop, to refrain from being seduced by our desires. To stop working, stop making money, stop spending money. See what you have. Look around. Listen to your life. Do you really need more than this?" (p. 137)
These thoughts have definitely resonated with me and have allowed me to switch gears to some degree. Mostly, I have applied the brakes. I realized that I, like so many people, try to fill every last second of every single day with productivity. And, I'm human. We are not made to operate in this crazy way. I have to stop.
One of the illustrations I loved in this book was this: "If certain plant species, for example, do not lie dormant for winter, they will not bear fruit in the spring. If this continues for more than a season, the plant begins to die. If dormancy continues to be prevented, the entire species will die" (p. 7).
So, I am allowing this new chapter in our lives to be a season of dormancy, so to speak...
Rest. Renewal. Restoration.